You may or my not have noticed, but... no post yesterday. Yep. But... I'm sliding into depression. Nothing major, but just a minor funk. I realize that I'm letting too many things that I really have no control over. An old friend (or rather, an old high-school crush) having trouble with the douche-bag known as her child's father who she is getting a divorce from (or may have already gotten a divorce from, I forget) and is seeing other guys, my mom who may or may not lose her job due to the plant she works at closing some time between the next one-to-three years.
I was hoping to actually hoping to get to go out of town with some friends to a Haloween party and get really drunk at least forget for a little while, but they all went out of town at 6 o'clock and I didn't get off from work till 8. And not trusting my pickup to make it anywhere out of the county under its own steam, there went the jaegar-induced temporary amnesia.
And that's almost something else on its own to get down about. The fact that now I'm almost hurt that I missed an opportunity to become chemically-dependant, knowing full well that I've got family history of it on both sides. And yes, I do in fact think that people can be genetically predisposed to chemical dependancies. S'a fact. Go look it up.
O, and let's couple with all this the fact that I just heard that while my brother (who is in the school band) had his car broken into while they were playing at a football game. I don't know why. Apparently nothing was stolen, so I'm thinking random acts of vandalism from fans of the loser team. To be completely crass for a moment, but what the god-damn hell is the fucking world coming to that it makes sense to somebody to go randomly break into a bunch of cars because their football team is a bunch of damn losers!!!! AAARRGGHHH!!!
Forgive me, for taking the lord's name in vain and for being so vulgar for a moment. its just been that kind of week / month / life. Well, I'm going to try to enjoy the rest of my night and chill out as much as I can the rest of the weekend. It looks like it'll be my last chance to do so for quite some time.
Later all. And thanks for listening to my whining.
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